pariah_kittie

New Art?

Wed, 30 Dec 2009 05:46:39 GMT

So, everything's been going really well. Just been really busy working the two jobs. I don't think it'll be much longer though before I get freed up again. Thursday I'm going to talk to my boss at Ultimate Electronics about my...permanence there. If it seems that I'll be keeping the hours I get and I'll be staying on, then I've decided I may quit Aaron Brothers. I maaaaay work like 1 day a week or something, but I feel like I really just need to focus on my career now.

At Ultimate I make more than twice as much as I do at Aaron Brothers, and working only 3 days a week. I don't think I could really get better than that :/

Sucks though that I'd have to give up the frame shop, but I know how to do all that stuff now so I'll just buy the supplies I guess.

ANYway, I've been dying to do some art, but have been either too tired or simply not home (working) to do it. And today I had a few hours to start something!

It's quite random, but at least it's something lol! Hopefully I can get it done before new years and post it as the last pic of 2009. The clothing was inspired by the movie Avatar a bit (awesome movie btw). I thought it was cool. Very well placed to cover the boobs, although I think this particular creature looks to be a male rather than a female. Yay for cheap fur! haha

Finger

Sat, 19 Dec 2009 03:41:17 GMT

My right ring finger hurts for some reason...likes it's out of place or something :/

I've noticed that everyone online seems to be really productive. Making things. Drawing things. I'm kinda sad, because I haven't been able to make/do much of anything lately.

Well, unless you want to include a fun photoshoot from a couple days ago lol. It was innocent, x-mas themed of course.

Ah, I want to draw so much. Maybe I'll have some time tomorrow to do that. Yup, I'll do that. =]

New job and new DA account

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 23:53:45 GMT

Yup! So as of last Monday, I've been training for a new job at Ultimate Electronics. My job title is IHD, where I'll be selling cameras, camcorders and iPods. =]
I'm pretty excited, because if feels like one of those jobs that has a lot of opportunity. The base pay is good, plus I get commission on top of that. The store I'll be at is only 10 minutes away too, which is a huge extra bonus as I thought I'd have to drive to Boulder! Ew. But yeah, as of right now the stores are closed for remodeling and will open on Thanksgiving weekend.

As for Deviantart, I finally made a new account! I haven't announced it yet, but today I finished transferring over my entire watch list and the main journals. I was going to do it all on new years but really, why wait? I'd rather just start uploading everything I do from here on out to the new account. In a way it sorta bugs me, because it means I'll be losing all of my comments and favorites and things...but oh well. I just hate the name thepariah-kitty...hell I even use it here! Maybe I'll have to change it everywhere else too....pretty much all the accounts I've ever made lol. Pariah is just so negative and not a good thing to associate with my art. It's unprofessional and misleading.

For those who don't know it's meaning, it's no big deal, but according to my recent poll at least 50 people know what it means. And that, is plenty I think.

So anyway, my new account name is Kamakru! It actually has something to do with me - my name! Each syllable in Kamakru is associated with the first syllable in my first, middle and last name. It's short, it has no alternative meanings, it's perfect. So, that's it ^_^

http://www.kamakru.deviantart.com

Art updates and that discouraged feeling

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 20:20:14 GMT

So, STILL working on the Halloween pic lol. But at this point, I haven't added any real Halloween traits, so I can still make it into a general raven pic which I might do anyways.

As far as commissions and stuff, I've all but given up on DA at the moment. And it's not that people have no money, because lots of other artists seem to be doing fine commission wise. I posted a huge sale journal on my prints, offering free shipping and any print after the first at $2.50...so it's like, reeeeeaallly cheap. But still, no interest. Not even a comment, which also makes me wonder if anyone is actually taking the time to look :/

Yeah, I know, I'm bitching. But I can bitch here if I want to. I feel bad when I complain on DA, although it's hard not to sometimes when I am in desperate need of funds! I know, so is everyone else....but even so. I still wonder exactly where I stand on that stupid little totem pole sometimes. It makes me wonder, if it's really worth my trouble. Why am I really on there? I'm not looking for critique... no one really buys anything from me....no one really talks to me, or interacts much... I'm being so horribly depressing right now, I know. It's childish. But damn! This is what I went to school for, is art. This is what I wanted to be. But really....this is what I wanted to be? Scratching at the walls of a non-professional art site for work? lol, quite silly and foolish now that I put it that way. Seeing it on the screen helps to understand I guess.

But somewhere inside me I know that I need to venture out a little further. And that feeling also prompted me to post a resume/job service on Craigslist.com, and the thing is, I actually got interest! It's a little different than what I'm used to doing. Well, QUITE a bit different. I was sent a picture of a toy car, like a hotwheels. This guy had modified the car, and he wants me to do a paintover, or illustration of the car. He's then going to take that and actually build the car for himself! I'll admit, it's a little scary to be illustrating a VEHICLE, but I could use the money, plus, maybe a little something for my portfolio? I'm still going to have him sign a contract saying the concept will be for his personal use only. I'm not really too worried about it, but I know it's at least a $40 piece so I'm gonna do it.

Lol, thinking on it, and taking into consideration the sheer time it's going to take me to do this, I'm totally selling myself short. But that's what I posted. Besides, at least for $40 he shouldn't be expecting anything too amazing right? I mean, since I'm not used to drawing cars.

Oh well, I hope this goes through. It might be the boost I need in my self confidence.
Ever since I opened commissions and posted the print sale journals on DA, and on FA as well, I just haven't really felt like drawing at all. It's just been really discouraging. Hopefully something will change soon

Halloween Pic WIP

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 03:54:51 GMT

I rarely ever do Halloween or Christmas or any holiday drawings, but this year I'm gonna do it! Heck, I'm not getting commissions so what else am I gonna do lol.
So, I'm doing a couple ravens helping themselves to some candy corns

Still gotta figure out what to do for the background, but I have a couple ideas in mind at least. I want to make the ravens semi-realistic and lots of colors. Gonna attempt to avoid hard outlines. Ek! Let's see how that goes hahah

Mmmm, pencil box

Wed, 30 Sep 2009 05:41:39 GMT

Well, here's an update. Hooray!
Okay, so first I saw that Rin had posted a desktop wallpaper meme. I'm too lazy to actually do it, but I will say I did put the desktop on my boyfriend's computer. It's a lava field. 2 reasons. 1 - I really don't like looking at a half naked pin-up girl every time I get on the computer (I actually put that there as a joke heh) and 2 - it's lava...and he's a guy. .... I didn't have many choices that I could agree with -_-;

ANYWAY .. lol

Kyle took me out to go shopping at Dillard's, which is an all clearance store near where I live. I felt kinda bad about looking too much since I know it's really not his cup of tea, but he was really sweet and looked at things with me. I found a really cute sundress that he got for me too ^_^
The clearance was crazy though, the dress was normally $70 and we only paid $15! I'll probably end up going in there more often when I need something heh. Although, I wish I had money to go shopping more...like, as in more than once every other month.... bleh.

Well after we got back from the mall and picking up cat food, we heard a tapping sound at the front door. After looking for a bit we found that a woodpecker had pecked a hole into the side of the wooden pillar on the porch! The pillar is hallow, and appearently the woodpecker fell into the hole after we went inside. He then spent the rest of the day pecking yet another hole in the bottom of the pillar from the inside out, since I guess he couldn't get back up. Gotta fill those holes now...

Then at work today we have all these major coupons and stuff coming out to try to fight off the crappy economy. I used one today that was 50% off one regular priced item, so I got one of those clear plastic divided containers for my colored pencils. It works pretty well except I had to use wire cutters to snip off the ends of the un-sharpened pencils to make them fit. But, it actually works out pretty well, and keeps all the colors seperate without having to use rubber bands.

Yup. So other than that, I've been gathering stuff to start another felt wings commission. This time it's based off my first design, except all white. Should be interesting!

oi

Fri, 25 Sep 2009 03:18:13 GMT

God I hope. Just.....reeeeeally hope.
That this weekend is the weekend I get parts to fix my computer.
Seriously?

So bad.....I don't think I've wanted something quite this bad for a long while.

In other news, working on another 5 foot set of wings for a client. It's going to Canada this time. But hey, extra money is always good!

After the Con, what's next?

Thu, 17 Sep 2009 03:40:19 GMT

Hey! I kinda forgot I had this account lol.
I'll update real quick I suppose.

So first, I got back from NDK last weekend. I didn't do as well as I was hoping, but I still came out ahead enough to pay my loan bills, which is enough for me right now lol.
And I sold the DS case I made with the pocket, so woo! That gives me hope for the other 10 fabric designs I still have sitting in my materials box in the studio heh. I still have some strawberry and cherry plushies left, loads of prints and bookmarks, and some sketcbhooks. I think I'll bring the sketchbooks to school since I know a few people who wanted one.
I met some cool artist's there, and we were talking and decided that we might all go together to A-Kon next year in Dallas! That would be amazingly awesome I think.

Now that the con is over, I've been relaxing a bunch. In the next few days I'm hoping to get my computer up and running finally, and after 8 months!! Sheesh, I'm surprised I'm still alive lol

Well, there's always more but nothing too important to really mention here.

A question about DS cases?

Sun, 02 Aug 2009 04:00:24 GMT

Okay, so I really need some input on this, because your comments and suggestions will help me decide the fate of this product.
So I was planning on getting a sewing machine a while ago, for the purpose of making hand made DS cases. Well as I'm broke as crap right now, I don't have a sewing machine to make the cases with, so I've been doing all the sewing by hand.

A case without the game pocket takes me a good 4 hours to make, and the one with the pocket takes me about 5. Granted, I could probably make this time faster since I had to figure out how to make them the first time around. Here's the pics of the two cases I've made so far.

The bottom photos were taken after dark so the color is kinda washed out. And the zipper is actually centered more towards the top of the case, so the opening is actually facing towards you in the picture.
Between the patterned fabric and the solid fabric is a soft batting, so the case is kinda squishy.

So here's the question:
Would $20 for the pocketless and $25 for the pocketed DS case be too much ask? If you were in artists alley looking for unique things to purchase, (and assuming you have a DS) would you be willing to pay $20 or $25 for a handmade case such as these? I have lots of different fabric patterns to use too.
I'd be selling these at an anime convention.
For the amount of time it takes me to make these though, lowering the price would make these pretty much pointless. What do you think?

Here's the poll for this on DA --> http://thepariah-kitty.deviantart.com/journal/poll/680646/

Looking at Houses - one we liked

Sun, 22 Mar 2009 22:47:54 GMT

Kyle, Nick and I looked at our 2nd house today and we decided to put in an application for it.
It's 3 levels. Upstairs has the master bedroom (huuuuge!) with attached bath and walk-in closet. The closet isn't exactly a full walk- in, but it works I guess. Next to the master bed is a small bedroom, no closet though. What's weird is both rooms have glass doors...but oh well, that can be fixed with curtains or something.

The main level has all hardwood floors with a living room in the front, the door to a 2 car garage to the left, and down the hallway you get to the kitchen. To the right is the main part of the kitchen, and to the left is the main family room with a fireplace, all connected as one room. If you keep going straight there's a balcony/deck. Downstairs theres what seems to be a studio (lots of electrical outlets and studio lighting), and basically 2 more rooms with a laundry room. I think we can request a washer and dryer fora little extra a month.

Also downstairs is a door outside to the backyard, where there's another deck.. The backyard has a tall, solid fence that's currently being re-done, that goes all the way to the sides of the house with locking fences. In the corner of the yard is a storage shed.

I think once the grass starts to grow again it's going to look really nice. I don't know if we'll get it though, as we're still waiting for Nick to hear back for a job, and there have been 3-4 other applications already. But, it all depends on who the landlord picks, and he seems really nice to hopefully we'll hear some good news soon.

Moving again!

Sat, 07 Mar 2009 05:08:22 GMT

Moving
Yes! I'm moving. It's actually probably a good thing, as this place is uh....not the greatest. Especially the part about how it gets to be over 100 degrees in the summer.
So, Kyle and I are thinking about renting out an actual house with one of our friends. That...would be SO amazing. It'd be nice to live in a house again. I'm so sick of this 3rd story noisy ass neighbor crap. Not to mention that, somehow, no matter how nice the apartment is that they show us, we always get an "old" one.
Anyways, there are actually a lot of reasons why we want to move, but I typed it all out earlier and the internet got screwed up and lost it so...I'm feeling lazy and giving the short version lol.

Working more
Yups. I wanted more hours at work and I magically got them before I actually mentioned it to my bosses lol. So it seems with all the management shifts that have been happening lately at both jobs, there are more hours and shifts that need to be filled. Between the two places I think I'm at 56 hours for next week. Hoooooly crap haha that's a shit ton! But I could reeeeealy use it right now too. And unfortunately....with the move and the onset of school loans, I don't think I'll be able to go to Comic Con this year. Sad.... but yeah, that's life I guess. Unless some miricale happens I don't think I'll be making enough to go anywhere this summer. Ah well, things can change quickly, so I guess I can only hope for the best.

Sick

Sun, 01 Mar 2009 23:32:05 GMT

Oh, yay.
So...nasty cold decided to hit me right after coming home from Missoula.
I've pretty much lost my voice and have to leave for work in about 20 minutes. And I'll be working alone pretty much the rest of the night. With no voice. How the hell is that suppose to work?

Bleh, it'd just be so nice to sleeeeeep. I have energy, and I'd totally use that towards drawing but can't.
And having no voice is so frustrating! Kyle keeps asking me questions that are not yes or no.....UM I CAN'T TALK SODJFPSDFJE stoppit
So yeah....tonight is NOT going to be fun. Especially trying to talk to customers?

Yay. I'm so optimistic aren't I?

Money is overrated

Wed, 11 Feb 2009 23:00:48 GMT

Wow, checking my bank account today was kinda scary. You know, when you forget that you sent out about $735 worth of checks and payments in one week the results can be -not- pretty.
Lucky for me I have overdraft protection, but then again, I've been spending money I thought I had. . =(
There's always tax returns, but it also costs like $80 to get them done. And my car's almost out of gas.

This always seems to happen when I let my money management slide and think to myself "oh, I have enough for this or that"...but it goes so damn fast. And it's obvious now that it's going faster than it's coming.

And to make it worse, I'm out of town for the next week and a half (starting the 17th) so no work for that time. Bleh. NOT good. But what to do? Get a 3rd job? Yeah right. Not doing it.

It seams the only reasonable thing to do is tough it out, take what I can get and work on my portfolio to start applying for jobs that will actually PAY something. Like....more than $9/hour would be good. That's all I need, at 30 hours a week.

I dunno anymore. From what I've heard no one - anywhere - can get a good job. It just really sucks, and I hope that things start to turn around soon.

Tax returns and convention costume ideas

Fri, 16 Jan 2009 01:48:55 GMT

I got one of my W-2's in today, and after I get the other one I'm getting my taxes filed! This is always an awesome time of year...I'm expecting at least $700, which is enough to get a good start on money for Comic Con!

Oh, speaking of, I've been thinking I might want to dress up this year. But as who?

It'd have to be somene that I look similar to at least. If it wasn't for her big lips and beutiful features I'd go as Grace from Soulfire. And if I can make the wings work out, I know there's a soulfire booth at the con:

Or there's always my option from last year for NDK. I've yet to see a decent cosplay of her, although I don't know if she'd fit in at Comic Con too well or not...then again, her dress is quite pretty, so I wouldn't mind wearing it around anways. The wings might get tiresome though:

Or, I'm wondering if I can get away with doing Kiani from the Fathom series? I wouldn't mind actually dying my hair for the occasion =] She also has some other outfits that would be a bit easier to make.

I can't really think of anything else though :/ Ah well, most likely I won't have the time to do it, but it's always fun to think about in case the opportunity comes ^_^

Sick again - new art focus

Tue, 13 Jan 2009 23:30:59 GMT

Yup, it seems I am positively sick once again this oh-so-awesome snow season.
I work every day the rest of this week, so I still don't know when my next day off is...makes it kinda hard to recover from such things.
It doesn't help that I've been having these wierd lower-abdomen and side pains...hope it's not anything to worry about.

There's a bunch to do in the next week or so of course, and little time to start or do much. Gotta get hotel reservations set for NDK and Comic Con this year soon, as well as start (and finish) the rest of my anthro commissions.

That reminds me, and I've really been thinking about this for a while now. I believe that one reason that my art seems kinda stuck is because of the anthro genre. I can't seem to get away from it, and it feels like I either need to completely break away or I won't be able to move on. All of my commissions are anthro, and although anthro is the most faved thing in my gallery at DA, (besides the wings) I don't feel like it really means anything...
It's not that I don't appreciate it, because I really do. But in a career sense, I don't think anthro fits anywhere. I get the feeling that video games that have anthro-like characters are looking for artists that draw humans and other creatures with the abilitiy to draw anthro. Not an anthro artist with the abilitiy to draw humans and creatures. :/

SO, in light of that I may loose many watchers over the next few months, but that's OK. I'd rather have watchers interested in my artwork and style, rather than watchers who just like to look at fuzzy animal creatures. Yes, it's interesting and cute and fun to play with, but I think it's time for me to be serious.

And why am I not posting this on DA? Dunno. Maybe it's just the certain people on here that I want to really read this. People who might understand better what an artist must do to advance, and not possibly get annoyed at my decision to change my focus in my art. Not that it really matters what many think or say, because I'm doing it anyway lol.

Yup. Gotta go to work.

Feh

Sat, 10 Jan 2009 01:34:00 GMT

It seems the holidays are not over for me...nope!
Well my hours have increased at BOTH jobs again, different reasons, but still.
At Game Crazy there's a visit from my boss's boss's boss...the BIG GUY apparently, and my manager is freaking out about everything and scheduling people to do all of this crap around the store to make it look perfect.

At Aaron Brothers my boss told me that one of the guys will be working more at his other job...so I'll pick up his hours. And she's thinking about ditching our framer (he's so clueless it's not even funny....) and so there's MORE hours, and I'm pretty much the only one that can pick them up.

But there is some good news! It seems that the shift leader got interviewed for a management job for another store the other day. He told me he'd know if he got it within the next couple weeks which means....I'LL KNOW IF I'M GETTING PROMOTED SOON FINALLYYYYYYY!!!!

But I'm worried too...that he WON'T get the shift lead job, and I won't get promoted...then what? I mean...I'm working 2 freaking jobs AND I'M STILL BROKE... yeah.

......

So...it doesn't happen much, but the other week I finally broke down...just...completely. I guess my frustrations finally came falling down and I couldn't bare it any more. It's been a long time since I actually cried. Kyle helped me...we talked about some stuff that was bothering us and it really helped. This holiday has been rough I guess, being so overworked and such. Since early December that's all it's been - work. Sure, I see people there but it's not relaxing. There's been little time for friends and other general activities, even getting groceries or doing household chores can be hard to find time for. It's just so frustrating sometimes.

Next week I'm scheduled to work all 7 days again...45 hours, no overtime pay.

I feel like a need a miracle.

What's on my mind...

Sun, 28 Dec 2008 19:57:32 GMT

Hey look, I'm writing something here! That means I have time....I HAVE TIME?!!?!? Holy shit, how did this happen? I thought I was suppose to be doing slave labor for the rest of my life in retail! D8

Whew! Well actually I DO have to work today in about an hour. So YAY AGAIN lol. But I have tomorrow off! That means that tomorrow is my first actual, REAL day off in... 3 FUCKING WEEKS. And the only way I got it off? I told one boss that my other boss had scheduled me all day. Lame huh? I can't wait to quit Game Crazy, I hate that place!

Yeah, I'm about to go batshit crazy if I have to work another day and listen to people complain about having to work 5 days in a row or that their next day off isn't for another 2 days and omg it's so hard for them! I WILL KILL YOU PEOPLE RIGHT NOW YOUDONTEVENKNOW.

Okay, I'm done ranting now? Yeah....

Well anyways, I'm hoping to go to Montana within the next couple months here. Hopefully the shift lead job at Aaron Bros won't magically open while I'm gone and be given to someone else...AGAIN. I really need to get out of retail. It's such a DEAD END.

HAH.

Next year I'm going to San Diego Comic Con again...it's the 40th year anniversary! I'm going to work on a portfolio for that, since I have until July to get one together, and hopefully.....I'll find something there. Still gotta get the hotel reserved though, and I'm not sure who's all going yet, but yah never know who's planning on going until later I guess. For now I just...kinda want to get out of Colorado. Sure there's like a couple game companies but really it's mostly graphic arts jobs here.

I'd really like to find a job doing illustration work, concepts or comics. Anything like that! Even web games would be fun.

For the future, I'd really like to have my own studio, even if it's just me it represents. Or have my own comic series! Lol that would be awesome.

.....

Not sure what else to say right now. At the moment I'm just feeling really exhausted from working the holidays, and want to relax...do some stuff that's not so demanding. Bowling would be cool....

Stuuu

Tue, 16 Dec 2008 05:51:40 GMT

Winter!
Hey look, a post! Not that I really have anything super-awesome exciting to talk about right now. XD
I guess, I can say that I'm already waiting for summer to be here! Winter is WAY too cold and uncomfortable, and I don't even skii or snowboard so what the heck am I doing here? Why can't winter just be snow, without ice, and no colder than say...20 F above zero?

Computer and Painter-X
Anyway, I've still yet to play around with Painter X....kinda wondering if I should wait anyways. My computer's been a bit bogged down and there's a possibility it might have a virus or two. SO if that's the case I'll probably have to wipe the hard drive and reinstall everything so I might as well wait.

Work
So, still doing two jobs for the moment. Aaron Bros and Game Crazy. Right now I'm on a 10 day working spree, Thurday will be my first day off since last Sunday so I'm pretty darned excited!
I'm really nervous right now at Aaron Bros because there's a Management job opening at another store, which means that if the shift leader at my store gets it, then I have the chance to FINALLY get the shift lead job. But, there's still a possibility of someone else getting that management position, in which case nothing will change for me. I really need that shift lead job though -_-; If I had that I wouldn't have to work 2 jobs, and I'd get bigger checks! I'm just so nervous though, I've worked really hard to get the shift lead position, and I've been outright turned down for it once, and automatically denied the chance to get it another time. And it was the position I was hired for! It just really frustrates me (and pisses me off) that I don't have it by now. I think I really deserve it, and I don't know what I'm going to do if I don't get it! I simply can't affored NOT to get it. >_>

My mind is on crack when I'm asleep....

Wed, 19 Nov 2008 07:09:05 GMT

Ok, I can actually remember my dream for once! I can't say it's anything fabulous, but more just plain weird! So here goes:

Me and Kyle are driving down a highway to what looks a lot like Boulder, CO (very open and close to the mountains). Kyle says to me "take this next exit, it's a shortcut" so I turn off of the highway on what looks like what used to be a dirt road, but has grown over with grass.

This "road" then starts to follow next to a large river in some sort of canyon going up into the mountains. The road at one point runs into the river and we (I'm not sure who is exactly driving at this point) end up running the car into the river and flooding the engine. We leave the car and start wading through this swampy marsh-like area which somehow goes up-hill. (??) At the top of the hill where the grass is dry is the tree line where the forest starts. The trees are so thick that you can't see through them.

As we get to the trees Kyles says to me "we need to get through these trees" and then turns into the Hulk and proceeds to tear them down. But, when some of the trees are cleared we find what looks like to be the side of a cabin, but you can't see the edges through the forest. We start to tear down the boards blocking our way and crawl through the hole into a large well-lit room, like a cabin itself.

This is actually another dimension, and once we were on the other side we find out we can't go back so we start to adapt ourselves to the new place. A phone rings and it's my "alternate dimension" cell phone. I pick it up and there's a guys voice on the other line (whom knew me somehow from this other dimension) and told me that he had used my Game Crazy discount to get a few things.

Yeah, that's what goes on up there...

Apocolyptica.....freaking sweet!

Tue, 21 Oct 2008 18:06:50 GMT

Omg you guys, I had so much fun last night! Kyle took me to my (technically) first rock concert ever. And it was so KICK ASS!!!

If you don't know who Apocolyptica is, check it out -->http://www.youtube.com/user/apocalypticavideos?ob=4

They are just as good live as they are recorded, if not better. I've never seen anyone rock out on cellos so hard in my life! There was so much energy involved in their performance it was unbelievable. Between the four cello players and the drums it sounded like there really was a guitar somewhere in there. Of course the cellos were hooked up to electrics, but part of that was to emit sound better. One of the players even plays a 300 year old cello! Some of the songs they played were so crazy fast that their hands were a blur. I have a few video clips that I took but sinse I was right in front of the speaker they're a little garbled heh.

They played a few songs that I hear on the radio pretty often, like I'm Not Jesus --> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OrlvOYUay_4
They also played some slower more orchestrative songs soo, which I really liked.

By the time the concert was over we couldn't hear anything lol. The theatre was set up with a MASSIVE sound system and we were standing right in front of one of the speakers. Half of the time I couldn't tell if it was the speaker or my own heart pounding.

All in all, I would definitely see them again! It was the parfect mix between hard-rock/death metal and classical music haha 8D

My first concert!

Mon, 20 Oct 2008 23:19:20 GMT

I am SO FREAKING excited right now! Kyle is taking me to the Apocalyptica concert tonight at the Ogden theatre! AAAAHHHHHH! 8DD

I hate bills

Tue, 14 Oct 2008 19:09:33 GMT

So I've figured out that I need to make at least $845/month to pay bills. That doesn't include buying food or anything else. Just bills.

I think I might have to get a second job, and I reeeally don't want to! I just wish my job now would give me the hours I need...so my paychecks would actually be more than $200 a piece.

It'd be so much easier if I wasn't forced to start paying off student loans 6 months earlier than expected. >_>

Things to do!

Fri, 10 Oct 2008 23:42:59 GMT

Random!

Things I wanna do!

-Start writing the scripts for my graphic novel(s)
-Make little plushies of my characters
-Make some environmental and more detailed portfolio pieces
-Start sending out apps to companies!
-Get frames for the rest of prints
-BBQ one last time before winter hits!
-Finish coloring wolf comic

Hey! I've decided I really need to keep up the energy to make things! It always seems that as soon as winters shows it face I fall into some deep lethargic daze that just makes me lazier than no other. When it's all gloomy outside it's just so hard to stay active.

And, I hate the cold! D8< Grrrr.

Thoughts on paying back college loans....

Mon, 06 Oct 2008 03:34:54 GMT

I figured it would be the safest to post this here since a very select few actually read my babble.

Okay. Here goes.

To pay for my college loans, I'm currently looking into modeling. Like....fashion modeling. Now anyone who knows me very well knows I'm not one to put on crazy clothes and go flaunting about, so why this?

To explain myself, it's been brought to my attention several times as of late. Twice I have been approached by a young lady to be a face model for some cosmetic company like Mary Kay or something (I think for them to practice makeup techniques on). And at NDK this year I was approached by a talent scout for Elite, pulse management. Just 30 minutes ago I sent an email to one of the managers (I was given a business card with this name) and we'll see if I get a reply.

Okay, truth be told: looking at some of what the girls do kinda scares me. The job description includes LOTS of travel, live runway modeling and magazine modeling. The magazines they hire for include W, Cosmopolitan, Elle, Essence, Sports Illustrated, Glamour, Vogue and Time. In fact, the more I think about it the crazier it all sounds! I mean, I'm an ARTIST, what I'm I doing looking into fashion modeling of all things! And, the fact that I've never really seen myself as someone able to look like those girls do in the pictures makes me wonder if they'd even be interested?

Granted, I like taking photos. I'm all up for going out with my friends and putting on some outfits we wouldn't otherwise wear and feeling all sexy like. But real, professional modeling? I just don't know. I would definitely try if I got the chance I think, but how far would it go? Could something like that actually pay off? And could I stand up to the stress and the pressure?

But, at the same time, how long would it be before I got a job in the industry I've been studying for? I've heard it could be instant, or take months. It could be on and off starving artist kind of thing. And from what I've gathered, modeling jobs start at about $100k a year. That idea is not something I'd shy away from too easily I think. It'd be nice to find a way to pay off loans, because after that all I'd have to worry about is the month-to-month usual payments of rent and regular bills. I'd probably have to move to L.A. or Chicago, but still.

Gah, I dunno. I have the feeling they'd reject me just as fast as I'd try out for it anyways. Still....it's a nice thought.

Photo Printer ftw

Mon, 22 Sep 2008 03:10:05 GMT

So, I did it. I went out and bought the Canon Pixma iP2600 photo printer! I'm pretty happy with how everything comes out ^_^ The oranges and yellows could use some adjustment, but for a $50 printer? Not so freaking bad. It even came with some 4x6 photo paper to test it out on. The ink cartridges aren't too expensive either - only about $27 for color and $25 for black and white. It has some awesome detail and can print up to 4800 dpi (how??) but this will give me a BIG help with prints, especially those of the better quality variety.

I'm half tempted to just have all of my prints open edition. I don't know if I want to try printing 20 full pagers for every print I offer, sooo...still gonna think about that one lol. What I might do is just select certain ones to have as limited editions. Probably just do L.E.'s on the traditional stuff.

Not sure why I'm posting this here lol. Who reads this anyways? I really have not clue. This should probably be on my DA page but here I am! Just....blah blah blah into the interwebs.